Day 6 - Day off

Today is my first "day off." I don't know what else to call it.

I woke up this morning and could really see some changes already! I ended up weighing myself again. I don't want to weight myself too much, but I knew there was a change....

weight: 143.6

I've lost 4.5 lbs in six days already. I know it's also because it's in the beginning and the weight loss will slow down to a steady pace eventually. I'm just glad that my efforts are paying off.

I have a new motivation other than accomplishing something great and looking good....I want the people who don't quite understand why I do the weird things like eat six times a day or don't drink alcohol on a Friday night to see the results of why I'm doing what I do.

I had some dreams last night about eating candy because I knew it was going to be my day off when I woke up.

After weighing myself, I really didn't want to backtrack at all, so I had a BFL breakfast. I did have some chocolate cravings, so I went to the store to get some chocolaty treats. I also got a massage, which was great! It was at a school so it's only $30 for an hour. I can't really afford the superfluous luxuries right now, but I really feel like it is a health necessity with my back issues and the intensity of my workouts.

I have an eye appointment in 40 minutes, then I think I'm going to go for a run. I've felt on edge yesterday and today. I want to just jog forever and relax.

I'm still going to keep track of what I eat on my days off. I want to be able to look back on this blog and see my journey the whole way through.

1) 8am - sonoma tortilla, 1/2 fage plain yogurt (whenever I have the fage yogurt, it's always the plain fat free kind), 1 T. PB (the pb is always organic and just peanuts and salt), 1 t. real unsweetened coco.

2) 8:40 am - 1/2 Lindt 70% cacao dark chocolate bar (it's about 1/2 the size of a regular choc bar)

3) 10am - other 1/2 of lindt bar, Odwalla chocolate flavor bar (delicious!)

10: 45 - 2 shots espresso w/ water, 1 splenda and about 1/4 c. skim milk.

1:00 - 10 almonds, 1 small yam (microwaved and salted), 1/4 c. ketchup

2:15 - (out at a restaurant) grilled veggie platter
cubed potatoes (not too much oil but I'm sure there's much more than I would ever use)
1/2 c. ketchup (I like ketchup!)
2 big tortilla chips and 2 T. spinach artichoke dip
mimosa.

3:15 - From Cold Stone - small sinless sweet cream ice cream with pb cup and fudge in a cone.

4:30 - small soy latte

9pm – potato wedges (fried), ½ c. ketchup

10pm – 5 mini reeces pb cups

11-11:30 – about 3 cups cheesy popcorn, ½ c. drink that is seltzer water, tequila and Malibu

12:00 am – ½ of this moose cake thing from grocery store bakery
1 weight watchers single serve ice cream
1 100 calorie peach cobbler
1bag low-fat microwave popcorn.

I'm doing a promotional job for some extra money tonight and then going to LB's place for a party he's having for a friend. I'm glad I'll be staying busy on my day off. I don't want to be thinking about food. It's nice that even when I drive past bakeries, I think, "I could have anything I want today. I just don't want it, though. I want to be healthy."

When I did BFL before, I actually went to the discount bakery place and I would get a big bag of stuff and just binge on it. Awful. I never want to feel like that or disrespect my body like that ever again. I think so much of weight loss and health is mental and emotional. I'm in a really good place right now. I've worked very hard to get here.

The "day off" is great, but I really can't wait to get back on plan tomorrow and have another full week of feeling good and getting results! I can't believe I'm 1/12 done already. This will be a breeze because I want it so badly!

**Hi Lauren (my only reader)! :)

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4:31pm -
Well I ended up eating more than I had originally suspected but I don't feel bad about it at all. It's my day off. I can't wait to get back on plan tomorrow, though! I'm just so ready to be healthy, slim and successful.

There have been so many times when other people had been doing some sort of health plan or just eating healthy and I couldn't understand how it was so simple for them. Now this is simple for me. I think so much is a mindset. If you're not in the right state of mind to stick to a healthy lifestyle, it usually doesn't mean you have to focus MORE on diet and exercise. I really think that it goes deeper than that. At the core, it's probably pretty important to like and respect yourself in order to subconsciously feel like you deserve to treat yourself well.

Just a thought.

Aaaaa, I can't wait to be back on plan tomorrow!!! I'll be doing the Susan G. Komen walk bright and early tomorrow.

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12:16am – Wow, well I didn’t end up running today and I definitely didn’t end up eatinighg healthy. It’s ok, because it’s my day off, but I learned that I might actually be happier taking a free meal that is just one meal, and possibly one dessert (but I think I’m done with desserts. They make me feel sick).